First comes love

then comes marriage. Where the hell is this baby carriage?

Its really really hard to talk about. Matt and I have wanted kids from the very start. We know we married young and would have had kids very young but, we figured if its what we wanted most then why not go for it? Its bitter sweet for me I guess. Im glad to be where I am right now in my own home and have my time to do what I please. We got the second dog because we have no other responsibilities at the moment and its easy to train him when we don't have kids yet. But it has been 2 years now of months and months and months going by with nothing happening. I understand were still young. But if after 2 years nothing happened and were young and healthy then words of encourangement are not going to help us.Not trying hard enough... Maybe. I have a random work schedual and therefore gave up temping and charting after doing it for a year. Don't use ovulation tests as often as I should. But if you cover your bases, what more do you really need? Trying to hard? Don't think so. Maybe its like my friend said; because you want it so bad, its not going to happen. Thanks.
Its hard to understand how I feel. Im not ever sure how I feel. I have wonderful friends and family and an easy life. Its wierd how this is not getting me down and for that I feel confused. I feel like I should hurt more than I do. I take each month in stride and see each begining as a fresh start. I feel too optimistic but that scares me. I hope no one ever has to go through this. I never thought I would have to make the appointments I just made and recieve the information packets I have been recieving. I seem to have good health insurance that will cover a lot of what needs to be covered.
Appointment on Sep 2 is with a new gyno for an annual with the understanding that we will get a referal to an infertility specialist.
Gosh this sucks.

He's so cute!

He's getting so big! Matt had to let out the collar a bit. Hes doing much better with the potty and he sort of knows sit and stay. Hes a very lovable pup and enjoys cuddles. He loves his belly rubbed as much as food. Snickers was never a belly rubber. Snickers loves him. They are brothers for sure. Snickers tought Simon how to play and play they sure do!

New friends.

Simon follows Snickers all over the yard. Smells good!





Olly just watches them go at it.

Snickers is very jealous right now. He wants Matts attention and doesn't want to share Matt at all. Simon follows snickers around like a shadow and Snickers just got annoyed. They played in the living room for a bit until Snickers got fed up with Simons razor teet!h. Those teeth are sharp

Wet dog

He got a bath!All clean!

Simon

Red Sox fan!!!!

Simon is our new golden retriever pup. Matt has wanted his golden for a long time. Before we even lived together. He also wanted a beagle. Beagle came first, obviously. And now seemed like a good time to give the beagle a friend. Snickers did meet Simon when we brought him over to Matts parents house. He sort of understood that he had a new brother. He tried to play with him like he would play with the cat. Kinda cute, kinda wierd. He also just wanted to hump him any chance he got. We just kept reminding Snickers that some day Simon will be bigger. And that wont take long.

But, we had an emergency already. He was tooo skinny today and his poop was very very bloody and watery. I had made an appointment for next wednesday but called and asked to be seen sooner. We settled on saturday and just before I hung up, I saw a pool of blood on the floor and the vet had me come in asap. So I did and we got a room right away as to not infect anyone or any animal. We got seen right away and taken care of very fast and I loved the ladies. They were helpful and awsome. We did the parvo test and all the other parasite tests. They were acting as if it coulde be parvo. Disinfecting everything he touched and even cleaning their own shoes. I was scared. But she came back and said he was clear of Parvo and would not need to stay the night. He had giardia. Easy to treat. K. She went to go make sure that was all. Nope. He also has coccidia. So 2 forms of parasites. No wonder he was so skinny this afternoon. So he got some fluids pumped into himself and he got a pill and some yummy liquid stuff. He is on a prescription diet to gain weight and make his digestive tract better. He loved the food. MMMM. Hes home now and sleepy.

On a good note and hopefully im not jinxing it, he is doing awsome in his crate. No poop last night or today. Hes a good boy so far.

Our backyard is filled with animals!

You can only see 4 but there are about 5-7 outside at a time. There were 2 black and 4 grey this time.

And we had about 5 chipmunks eating helicopters

This has to be the cutest picture of a chipmunk ever!

And this creature was outside too. Looks hungry?!?!

our fire pit!

We used some of the left over bricks to make a fire pit in the back corner of the yard.