Contractions

Suck. But thats no unknown secret, no one hides the fact that they hurt. Last night was a new one. I have been having braxton hicks for weeks. They started at 32 weeks where I would only notice them if i felt my belly when it felt "off" and I could feel how hard it was. Then they progressed to me feeling them without having to touch. Then they started to get slightly painful but nothing that really hurt. Then they started reaching the back and it still didnt hurt but it wasnt pleasant. Last night, I laid in bed for almost a solid hour just wishing to fall asleep so I could ignore them. I was rubbing my own back and breathing really hard. I would have cried but I didnt want to go to sleep with a head ache. I knew they meant nothing as they were too close together and made no sense. I tried to fall alseep and I eventually did. When I woke up, Matt commented that I did not look very rested for how much sleep I should have gotten. Thanks dear.
But I need to get my self in gear! I need to clean my house and organize it. Babies room is done for now and ready to go thanks to my mom coming over and helping me on Sunday. I also need to pack my bag before its too late. I cant imagine having to tell my husband over the phone what I want him to bring to me. "whats soap?"  Bad enough I might have to send him on a grocery trip durring that first week home. "i got milk and cereal but I never knew they had other stuff too!".
I kid I kid. Matt would be just fine... I might not be though.  lol

Tiny baby Bard!

Baby Bard is a Bard. No doubt. Jaw line looks to be very square and the lips look just like Matts. Boy? Baby is measuring at only 4lbs13oz which is of course an estimate but its still small. Bigger than I was when I was born though so, thats a plus so far. Fluid is on the low side of being okay and therefor we get an ultrasound every week now until baby is born. Fridays will be the day for all my future appointments and ultrasounds. Doc predicts a 5 1/2lb baby which is good because I have a TON of newborn onsies to use up. Hopefully they arent too big for too long. Although thinking that some of them could be big just blows my mind cause they are so so tiny. Baby is moving plenty and I am not having any real issues to report so all is well until next week. Doc isnt worried about the babies size due to me and matt both being smaller people and me being a small baby. All was good. Heartbeat was 140. Head size and bone sizes all measured in perfect perportions. Baby is head down and facing the right way. They used the little startle machine to make it move and it was so cute to see it squirm for a sec. Cause of course, baby was moving ALL night and then had to be lazy baby on camera. I have to turn in my paperwork at the next appointment and I think im done with it. Need to create a birth plan now. Need to pack my bags too. Baby clothes are washed and ready to put away and maybe Ill go out and get a cute girl outfit and cute boy outfit. I have no idea what clothes to take for me but I dont care as I wont be out and about on my way home. Although Matt said we can stop at the liquore store for my wine coolers on the way home (thanks?). I have my toiletries ready to go and the car seat is by the door. I still have so much to do, but the basics are ready.

lets rant!

I dont usually rant to anyone but my husband because I really have nothing to rant about. But I need a reminder as to why this will be an only child. Morning sickness sucked. Puking everyday for 10 weeks was no fun. And since I worked early mornings many times a week, half the puking episodes happened at work. Lukily, next time (maybe) I will not be working in fast food and at 5am or till 2am. The tiredness in the first trimester sucked. Especially working 8+ hours on my feet running around being productive. Lukily I could take a nap whenever I had nothing to do, next time (maybe) I will have a child to contend too. Trimester 1 also was shitty because of the added hormones I took. Progesterone supositories 3 times a day from day 1 till 13weeks. Estrogen patches on my stomach that went from 1 patch every 2 days, to 4 patches every 2 days from day 1 until week 8ish I think. Trimester 2 was spent hungry. I was eating lots of snacks and thats when I gained my 25lbs. I could eat, and I could have competed with my beagle for who was more ravenous. But I was also working full time on me feet running around like a crazy women and therefor felt no reason to work out since I was doing enough at work. Trimester 2 was kinda crappy though because I never had a belly and had to explain to people that I was eating and gaining and really was x amount of weeks along and yes im sure because I have seen my baby and doctors didnt seem concerned. Next time (maybe), Im sure ill get bigger like many times happens with number 2 (maybe) and Ill realize how easy it was. I also never got a cute bump. It always had a funny line in it that made it look flat and stupid. Not something I wanted to show off but I took what I got because it meant a growing baby.  Trimester 2 was also boring having had an anterior placenta and not feeling baby till almost 20ish weeks. But, Ill take what i can get since baby is making up for that now, painfully. Trimester 3 started fine. But then the kicks and punches and wiggles actually became painful. Maybe the baby has run out of room and I wish I was bigger so that maybe it wouldnt hurt so bad. I never had an increse in peeing until trimester 3. I always went often but it wasnt hindering my sleep. Now, I sleep in 45 minute-90 minute spurts. If I actually go 2 hours, I am thankful. And sleeping is crappy. Baby does the painful moves at night when Im on my side but I cant lay on my back comfortable and it gets even more pissed when I try laying on my belly. I lay in bed for a few hours and pee whenever my body wants. I usually get some good sleep in the morning time, but that cuts into my being productive for the day. If I get up early, I need a nap by 11. Sometimes I am sleeping till 11 and I really miss getting up by 9 but my body is not letting me get up since I didnt really get much sleep. Sleeping is going to suck next time (maybe) because ill have a kid to contend too. Heartburn has been my constant factor since halfway through trimester 2. Tums work great but I dont want to take to many so I add a few ice cream bars into the daily mix. My heartburn has no trigger food, but I get it worst on an empty stomach or when I am too full. If heartburn is an indication of hair, I had best bring pony tails for my newborn girl, or hair clippers for my newborn boy. and next time (maybe), I will buy times by the wholesale box and see if its cheaper than buying a large bottle every few weeks. Ice cream isnt bad since Im just eating store brand vanilla with fudge coating bars. Trimester 3 is also bringing on nausea. I didnt have the nausea in trimester 1, just puked. Now I am nauseous after I eat breakfast and eating sucks. I havent gained much weight in the last 7 weeks because my appitite sucks. Im trying to snack and im drinking as much water as I can fit but food just isnt my thing. I dont have any cravings and never really did, except a small taco and chips and salsa period. I dont have an aversions and nothing ever set me off. Now its just nothing at all whatsoever sounds good to me. But now when I actually want food, I want a good solid meal of steak or chicken and veggies. Something of substance to helpe me feel better. Trimester 3 still has weeks to go and I am not ready to have a baby in my house or in the nicu so I will take whatever the next few weeks has to throw at me. And the babies room?!?!  All the clothes are now washed and going to be put away tonight. Things are ready to go and the only thing I really need left to buy is my nursing pads but I want wool ones and Im waiting for them to come around again on my deal of the day site.
Not so rant:
I enjoy that I havent written in my other blog about my still struggles with infertility. I am thankful beyond words that I am pregnant after one round of IVF. I am beyond thankful that insurance has covered everything it has taken to get this child. I am more than thankful that technology is so great I didnt end up with twins because I dont know how people with multiples can manage a pregnancy and then after. I am glad that my only complaints are morning sickness that ended by week 13, and heartburn that is controlled by tums and ice cream. I am blessed to still be pregnant at 34 weeks with a baby that lets me know on a regular basis that it has feet and is cant yet figure out the breathing thing down by having the hic-ups a million (3 or 4) times a day. I am exstatic that I will get to make my husband a daddy.
Next time(maybe) I am going to try to not be pregnant in summer.

8ish months pregnant

I had my baby shower a few weeks ago and it was an eye opener. I recieved many awesome things but was also then able to go shopping for everything else I need. I spent the fallowing week in Chicago meeting my new niece and hopeing to help my sister in law with moving. I turned out to not be very helpful as I spent the week exausted and run down for no reason. I also started to expirience braxton hicks which made me feel very very NOT ready for a baby yet. As in, I needed to tackle that shopping list that was put off until my shower. I came home from Chicago and my friend came to my resue to help. She cleaned some closets for me while i cleaned my house from being gone for a week. The next day, we shopped. I have everything I need now minus the amazon order, csn baby order, and babies r us order I placed last night. I spent yesterday slowly opening things and reading the packaging of things and finding some order to the room. The room is primed and ready for paint, but that wont be till we know if we need blue or pink. I have laundry to start this week and then hope to get my bags packed by the end of the week. Im not ready, but I keep feeling like I dont want to rely on Matt to do these things should something happen early. And if I have a c-sec, I want things to be as easy on me and him as possible by having it done.
  How do I feel at 33ish weeks? Well the Braxton hicks are getting more uncomfortable than they were 2 weeks ago but still nothing to bat an eye at. Nor are they consistant in any way or happening for any reason. I feel nauseas often in the morning now and my heartburn has started to have more bad days. The baby moves in ways that Im surprised my belly is not black and blue. Of course, not having much room probable doesnt help its cause. I am getting an ultrasound next friday to see how the baby is measuring since I am measuring small.

30 weeks!

Here are some doggies cause they are cute.

Here is the room as it is now. Slow going but we have no big rush. yet.

Me! Today at 30 weeks!!

     Today marks 30 weeks. 70 (ish) days left. 3/4 (ish) done. Not freaking out or anything since this was obvously planned with having to do IVF and all but IM GOING TO HAVE A REAL BABY SOON. Im going to be MOM. oh my. oh my. oh my. 

     My only complaint is still heartburn. It sucks and I am thankful to have milkshakes at work, ice cream at home, and tums on my person at ALL times and next to my bed. I have heartburn when I have an empty stomach, doesnt matter what I eat or drink, and sometimes it doesnt want to go away. I also average sleeping for 90 minutes at a time. I got up a good 4ish times a night to pee. I am thankful though that I get up because if I happen to sleep for a longer stretch, it hurts to get up and then I wonder if Ill make it to the potty.

   I dont really have much to say yet. I have had an easy pregnancy, which is good considering the begining of it and the fun it took to achieve. I have been working fullish time on my feet and doing just fine, but next week is my last full week. I have 4 small shifts throughout June now, but thats fine. My shower is in a week and then I can go through and sort every little baby item I have aquired in the last 4 years and do something with it all.

   All in all, Im still amazed to be here. 30 weeks. oh my.

25 weeks!

25 weeks along today! I feel great. The heartburn is still easy and I have no food issues what so ever. I am working 5 days a week right now because I have no reason not too. So of course I hear "This has been easy on you so far". Hmm. The first trimester was spent bleeding and puking and no energy. I vowed never to do this again! But of course, thats in the past (and a reminder in blog form) and trimester 2 could not have been any easier for me. Of course my doctor told me it all goes down hill from now. Luckily it was the doc I love and would give anything for her to be in the hospital with me. I also get told I am not showing much. Well, I wasnt and Im really still not very much for 6 months. You can almost tell in my work uniform now and in clothes I look like I ate an extra big mac on break everyday for a few years. I have 2 tight skin bands that leave indents in my belly so its not round looking. But I have gained 21lbs now! And measuring on track so its all good. Im just not putting the eliptical in the basement for a while cause Im going to need to use that. I saw baby again this week so they could get kidney measurments and spine. I was told all my results are perfect and no news from my fetal echo so that was perfect too. After doing IVF, I was scared something would be be too good to be true. I dont care how baby comes out and what it took and what I got, but I would feel so bad if I forced this to happen only to have a baby who has a harder than average life. There could still be issues of course but at least so far things appear to be going easy.


Baby sits low very often and has the hiccups on a regular basis. Good for my ribs so far, not so good for the bladder. I love when baby is being lazy and all matt has to do is put his hand on my belly and baby just has to say hi :) Ahhh life is good. I got used to thinking this was never going to happen and now its here and real and amazing.

23 weeks!

I have heartburn that is curable with tums. No complaining there. My belly doesnt seem to grow but the scale seems to keep going up. The child kicks once in a while but it seems to flop a lot. I get some pokes and jabs but its usually a good thud. It really doesnt usually feel to good either.
We had a heart ultrasound last week just because it was recomended or required because we did IVF. We werent worried since our other ultrasound looked fine. And of course, baby bard is just fine! The lady even let us play with the baby and get some 3d pics. She proceded to find out the gender because she anted to know yet we still have no clue. I dont even have a guess, nor do I have a preferance.
Everything is just boring right now. Im still working, more now than before. Im not allowed to buy anything else till after my shower. Im about to start painting the room soon.
This is too easy right now.