First comes love

then comes marriage. Where the hell is this baby carriage?

Its really really hard to talk about. Matt and I have wanted kids from the very start. We know we married young and would have had kids very young but, we figured if its what we wanted most then why not go for it? Its bitter sweet for me I guess. Im glad to be where I am right now in my own home and have my time to do what I please. We got the second dog because we have no other responsibilities at the moment and its easy to train him when we don't have kids yet. But it has been 2 years now of months and months and months going by with nothing happening. I understand were still young. But if after 2 years nothing happened and were young and healthy then words of encourangement are not going to help us.Not trying hard enough... Maybe. I have a random work schedual and therefore gave up temping and charting after doing it for a year. Don't use ovulation tests as often as I should. But if you cover your bases, what more do you really need? Trying to hard? Don't think so. Maybe its like my friend said; because you want it so bad, its not going to happen. Thanks.
Its hard to understand how I feel. Im not ever sure how I feel. I have wonderful friends and family and an easy life. Its wierd how this is not getting me down and for that I feel confused. I feel like I should hurt more than I do. I take each month in stride and see each begining as a fresh start. I feel too optimistic but that scares me. I hope no one ever has to go through this. I never thought I would have to make the appointments I just made and recieve the information packets I have been recieving. I seem to have good health insurance that will cover a lot of what needs to be covered.
Appointment on Sep 2 is with a new gyno for an annual with the understanding that we will get a referal to an infertility specialist.
Gosh this sucks.

He's so cute!

He's getting so big! Matt had to let out the collar a bit. Hes doing much better with the potty and he sort of knows sit and stay. Hes a very lovable pup and enjoys cuddles. He loves his belly rubbed as much as food. Snickers was never a belly rubber. Snickers loves him. They are brothers for sure. Snickers tought Simon how to play and play they sure do!