No July baby here!

So I guess we are not having a July baby. Kinda sad since I got used to July. But I will agree with my sister in law that August has a prettier birth stone. How do I feel? I feel like I have been having contractions for a month, braxton hicks for a month, heartburn forever, im sick of being sick, I miss fast food, I miss getting out of bed without grunting, I miss my dogs since they are at grandmas, and Im sure I can make the list go on. I do enjoy that the movements dont hurt anymore because there is not enough room. I feel bubbles so low that I dont how they are inside. I lost my plug a week ago and now im loosing more stuff that I wish I didnt have to see. Im ready to move on with my life as a mom and get back into a routine, or make plans again. Or let everyone around me make plans again. And dont get me started on baby number 2. Now we are trying to figure out when to have the next one and Im just not there mentally. I want to have this one out first and for once not think about getting or being pregnant. It didnt suck and I had a very easy pregnancy considering it was still a pregnancy. I would do it again. Although lets wait till after labor to discuss that more seriously.

I can't complain if everything is perfect

Baby looks great. Fluid level looks great. My blood pressure is great. My pee looks great. I look and feel (pregnant) great. So what happens next? Nothing!
So the doc asked if I wanted to be checked anyway even though at this point it means nothing. I was already undressed and so I asked for a sweep since I got one last week. Doc said "I can do it, but the risk is accidently breaking your water" ::crickets:: I said "I won't tell anyone if you do break it!" I got my sweep. I said "maybe paring it with some good storms today and walking will do the trick!" I'm too crampy to think about walking. An kid is moving so much in gettin nauseas again. But anyway, doc said babys head is RIGHT THERE and I am still fully efface and thinned and a good 2-3cm still. It could be a quick labor once it happens. Uh huh. Didn't want to schedule an induction because dr was pretty sure I would go on my own sometime soon. Sure. I was told to schedule an appointment for Wednesday and then we can plan an induction or next Thursday or Friday. But dr doubts I'll make it that far. And for the 3rd week in a row and a 3rd dr saying it "I wouldnt be surprised If you come in this weekend". Uh huh.
I also didn't appreciate the smirk on baby bards face at the ultrasound. I will get this child back someday.

Due date!

Bunch of bull.

im still here.

   I told Matt I was going to order winter maternity clothes since my due date must be for next year and not this year. July 2012.
   I walked the mall yesterday. I wish I could have walked longer but the cramps were not very fun and I was scared of being at one end, with my car at the other. I walked for about an hour and a half. I left just in time though. On my way home, it was very dark out and I walked into my house 2 mins before it down poured. I opened the windows and welcomed the thunderstorm in hopes of a good pressure change and some water breaking. What we got was wind, and rain and a whole lot of nothing more. A couple towns over had severe weather including funnel clouds. I didnt wish for a tornado, but I would have liked a bit more storm over here. Today I am walking around the house and just chillin. I did start to get some awesome contractions last night that hurt like hell but of course they were few a far between. Im still getting contractions but non of these hurt, last long, or reach my back.
   I had a dream last night. I woke up in the morning and realized the babies head wa already coming out. I had no time to get to Noho so I pushed the kid back up and told Matt to bring us to Nobel. Then I was walking out the door to the hospital with Matt but the baby was still at the hospital. I had to leave cause they dont have a maternity section. I went to call my mom and tell her what happened but I didnt know what we had. I asked Matt what the baby was and he laughed and said "How do you not know what it was?" and I said "It was in a blanket!".  told me it was a girl. I called my mom and said "mom! its a girl!" and she was like "oh really?". and I said "no, its a girl! I had the baby really fast!" and then I woke up....  lol

Non stress test

Went for my NST this morning. I had to go since I refused to get induced this week. Ate a granola bar to curb the nausea and drank water. Stopped on the way for a small ice coffee and french cruller In hopes of having a wiggly baby. Well, baby was fine and all was good with that. It picked up a few small contractions and a big one. All was normal. But the poor lady got to help me puke. /sigh. Doc said I puked cause I'm pregnant and we were there to moniter baby and baby looked good so I was free to be pregnant forever. Damn it.

whens my turn?!?!

Timing contractions is useless. I will never do it again and therefor may have a baby in my own toilet. I have a few hours worth of painful, sometimes cant even talk through contractions. Decide, hmmmm, maybe I should time these! Hey! Where did they go? I know the difference between my braxton hicks that I get when i get up, down, move, stay still, or anything really. But I know my contractions when they stop me in my tracks, reach my back and take my breath away. But what I dont know, is why they never pick up a pattern and get the baby out. I also dont really gage them very well and figure if I can ignore them or fall asleep to them, im good for the time being. Hense I have had sleepless nights of contractions and not been to the hospital once. I can think of 3 times I have thought it could be it but decided that it just didnt feel like it yet.
You also know labor is close when your father in law calls. "If you lost your mucus plug, you should bring the dogs over now, and get some more vegetables." Dogs are now at my in laws which means they hopefully wont be home till baby is.

My doctor lied to me.

I defenetly just lost my mucus plug and my doc told me i lost it already. There was no mistaking that nasty thing. After walking around in a pool for over an hour, I guess it stirred things up for me. Now I hope I can get a good night sleep and go into labor tomorrow morning. Wishful thinking. Time is ticking!

39 weeks!

2-3cm dilated, fully effaced and fully thinned. I'm told the baby can't get any lower than it is. I got my membranes stripped and all I feel is crampy for now. Im a ticking time bomb now! The ultrasound showed low fluid but not dangerous yet and the baby wasn't gaining much weight but it was getting bigger at an estimated 6 1/2lbs. I haven't gained weight since trimester 3 started an I lost a few lbs. Doc wasn't too happy with that but I know I'm eating! Food keeps the heartburn away! I also threw up this morning... Doesn't help matters. The ultrasoun lady told me that with my low fluid and slow growth I would probably not be alowed another week. But the doc said it was good enough for now but asked if I wanted to pick a day next week anyways! I said no. As much as I want baby out yesterday, I don't want pitocin if I don't need it and I dont have gbs so I'd rather deal with an iv as least as possible. I'm also nor the biggest fan of the epidural idea so I'd rather lower my chances for an epidural and c-sec by not getting induced. I'm only 39 weeks and don't have any big issues, don't really have little issues either. We scheduled an NST for Tuesday to make sure things are still all good and I have my appointment for next Friday set up. Then we can talk about inducing. Until then, I'm going to clean my house.

Baby would have more room

If it would just get out of my uterus.

Its a new week.

   Matts prediction was off. Last week is over and im still pregnant. This kid has run out of room but I dont feel bad, it could come out if it wanted too. Maybe the beagle barks and cat hisses are keeping it in? Either way, I would like to be done. Please and thanks.
   The cats are actually tolerating each other just fine for now. We can leave them out together and Im not scared of Olly killing Moxie. Only problem is, Moxie can not yet go into the basement. We dont want to teach her to use the cat door yet because we dont want to lose her down there. So Olly has food in the basement but he has also taken to eating the kitten food from Moxies bowl.
   Snickers has started hording his dog bones. He used to chew them up right away and all would be good in his world. Lately, we give him and Simon the same size bone and Simon is done with his before Snickers even tries with his. He hordes them under the table, side of the bed and even put it in the bedroom closet and guarded it. He spent nights not coming to bed so he could protect his bone. The 2lb kitten may take it on him! Something about a 5 year old dog creating new habits has me wondering if this has to do with baby. Snickers seems to be the most odd lately with the impending child. He can tell something is going on but he cant tell what it is. Poor guy. Once he learns next year that this child spills food all over and he will be needed to clean it up, im sure he will cheer up!
   And then we have Simon. The fearless ::cough cough:: golden. Someting about a 55lb dog retreating to a little girls plastic play house for a few hours at a crowded outdoor party is funny. He wanted nothing more than to chill in the plastic house. He may have been tired from his first swim. Matt took him to the river yesterday and brought him into a deep spot that he was forced to swim in. I did not go but Matt claims they had a good bonding experience and Simon had fun. Wet goldens stink! After the birthday party yesterday, Matt and Tom took their dogs to the lake in huntington. Simon swam again and I guess had a good time and Poncho swam for the first time too. All the boys had fun and came home tired. Simon and Matt are sore and tired from their fun yesterday. Why didnt Snickers go? He cant be bothered by water. We did let him play at grandmas all day so he got he got tired out with what he likes to do.

Full moon

You failed me.

no change

Nothing new from last week. Still 2cm, fully effaced and pregnant. Doc said she is working tomorrow morning and might see me due to the full moon tonight. I hope so. If not.... Im soooo going to be misserable. Im sick of doing all the tell tale tricks to get the baby out. They end in me having useless contractions and no sleep. I would rather be well rested for when the time comes. I have entered miserable territoy. The movements make me want to cry. The peeing is worse. The walking/waddle has set in. No swelling at all which is good. Oh hey, a contraction. Que the breaking water and I will be happy. Not on this couch though, its expensive.

no sleep round 2

Contractions started at about 7pm. They came and were 2-3 mins apart consistantly. Ate dinner and went for a walk. The walk got too much so I sat around and still had them. But they didnt hurt and they didnt reach my back or make me feel any pressure. So to bed we went. Didnt sleep. They would hurt too much. Started getting into my back. Got up and walked around the house. Nothing. Layed back down and they would hurt. Sat in chair. Layed back down and they would hurt. Took a tylenol at 4am for my headache and fell asleep for 3 hours. Woke up. Nothing. Slept for 2 more hours but got up to pee inbetween. I am so exausted with such a headache from no sleep. I didnt want to go to the hospital on no sleep but they never got worthy of a trip. While they were consistantly non stop, they never hurt enough or got to my back to make me want to go. Now im eating breakfast and going to try and sleep again. Im afraid if I did actually go into labor right now, I would have no energy. Matts not sleeping either. And the cats insist on sleeping on me. Olly got on me a few times last night and doesnt like to leave my side. He has fallowed me around the house for 3 days now. And i woke up screaming last night which got matt to shoot up in bed. I had a kitten scratch my back. /sigh.

Matt predicts this week

Matt has said all along that this is the week baby will be born. What did he know? So of course I shoulf spend the first night of the week with contractions and no sleep. Things calmed down before he went to work and I took it easy for the sake of no sleep. Im getting braxton hicks still on a consistant basis but nothing that makes me think its a contraction or worth my time for now. I took a nap for a few hours and am still exausted but hopefully tonight goes better. I need to get to the grocery store so Im hoping Matt will cooperate and come with me just so I am not alone. See how that goes. Today would not have been a good date. Tomorrow is fair game!  

What is what?

My first contractions of the night started at 7pm or a bit before. I have been havin them since. Some are a few mins apart. Some are 10 mins apart. Most start either in my back or at the top of my belly. I was fine dealing with then until about 3am. I slept for a but but now I can't sleep through them any more. I would go for a walk if it wasn't only 4am. I'm not in the mood to call my doctor yet and i hope matt is getting some sleep. He has to get up in 3 hours and I'm hoping I can figure our what's going on by then. I wish my water would just break and we could get this show on the road.

37 weeks!

2cm dilated and baby is super low. Wouldn't be surprised to go anytime now. I feel constant pressure and get contractions on a almost regular basis. The baby is pushing it's feet out ad far as possible which makes my side hurt. The other side hurts because the feet pushing out, pushes the butt out. It's painful! I'm almost in tears from it sometimes. I'm nauseas on a regular basis and peeing every 2 mins. I'm drinking more water than I thought I ever could. Not because I need too, but because im so thirsty and it's all I want.
Baby is meaning 6lbs which is way awesome considering what we thought it could end up being. I understand that the measurements can be off but the bigger the better. I dont need a nicu baby if I don't have too. Baby today was sticking out it's tongue, licking it's lips, yawning, smiling (gas?) and it even peed on camera for her. What it peed out of, we don't know. Next week she is going to strip my membranes and see what we get. Unless I don't make it. And with the pressure I feel and how low the baby is, I don't know how much longer it will be. Bags are packed, house and car are clean, and we are ready. Very very ready. Although we have no clue what we are getting into. Being it on!

36 weeks pregnant

I am 90% effaced and 1cm dialted so far! Better than nothing even though it could mean nothing. The contractions I have been getting inbetween the minor braxton hicks, must be doing their job. Baby was lower than the week before which explains all the pressure I am now living with. Doctor said I probably wont go over my due date, and that is good enough to me right now!

Our new family member!



Is a girl! Moxie.

    2 weeks ago, on a Saturday morning, we decided to drop the dogs off at Matts parents house so they could play and get energy out and have time with their Grandpa. And I wanted to a bit more bed space for one night since most nights involved me curled up with a golden on my feet and a Snickers by my side. While at the Bard house for a quick drop and go (impossible to accomplish but one can hope), Snickers was howeling outside. While he may be a beagle and it may be common for him, something about it seemed to be attention getting, and annoying. I sent Matt out to shut him up or see what he wanted. The dogs were all fixated on the neighbors shed. My mother in law said the dogs have seemed fixated on it for a few days now, so one could assume it must be bunnies. We have/had bunnies under our shed that Snickers liked to tell us about. So chit chattin away while Matt shuts up the annoying beagle and Matt comes in holding something. Please dont be a bunny was the first thing I though. "Its a kitten!" Matts said and held it out. Shit. He handed it to his mom and went to go look for more. "you can bring it to the no kill animal shelter and a kitten would get adopted right away". My mother in law must not have seen the look on her sons face. The look that told me this kitten was ours for the keeping and he was in complete love. We got the kitten safe from the dogs and into a place she couldnt get out of. I went outside to help Matt look for more but I am so thankful we only found one. We would have only kept one but would have had to figure out what to do with more. Matt told me how he found her. He saw what Snickers and Toby were barking at and noticed it was indeed a kitten. She climbed up the tree and Matt had to get on the fence. Stand on the top of the fence and reach up to a branch that was just almost out of his reach. He saved her and she probably looked at him with her cute eyes and purred and of course he melted.

    I didnt even try to convince him of not keeping her. I asked him if he wanted me to call the vet and get an appointment and he said yes. We didnt discuss keeping her or not, we just took her home and got some kitty food on the way. The timing sucks with a baby coming any time but a cat isnt hard to care for. We have been keeping her in the babies room at night just to be with her food and litter box and safe from Olly since Olly doesnt always want to play. She had ear mites and we gave her daily drops but the vet said she was too young for the meds as is and they may not work. If she still has ear mites this week, we get to put her on more meds. She was to young to get shots 2 weeks ago, 5 weeks old, so we will get some this week. She has no worms and tested negative for everything else. She is ours now.

    Moxie enjoys food. Almost as much as the beagle, if not just as much. She tries really hard to get onto your plate. She enjoys her food, the dogs food, and our food. Olly only eats his food and his brand and his treats and only one brand of treats. Olly wont even go for your milk and when he does, he licks ot once or twice and walks away. Moxie likes ANYTHING. Poor Snickers has another begger friend to compete with.

    Moxie likes to play. At 7 weeks old, she enjoys string, fingers, toes, dog ears, dog tails, cat tails, legs, arms, hair, dog fluff, cardboard boxes, and her favorite toy is the string to the blinds on the back door. She now is allowed to play with Olly, per his permision that is. Olly still hisses at her on occasion but after 2 weeks, they also play together. Chase each other around or Moxie just jumps on him and he looks at her like "thats all you got? you call yourself a cat?" Moxie plays with Snickers. He didnt understand how to play with a 1.2lb animal but she didnt care. She eggs him on and he chases her. He gets pissed when she goes under something and he cant fallow. He looks at you like "do something! I  wanted to keep playing with her". Simon is her best friend. Probably because he doesnt get bothered by her and she can do whatever she pleases to him. She runs and jumps on his head to get his ears. She jumps on his tail. She plays with his tail when he lays down. She wraps herself around his arms and legs and plays while he just lays there. He doesnt chase her or try to play because he cant really play with something so tiny. But he lets her do whatever she wants to him and he loves it.

    Moxie likes to cuddle. She cuddles with Matt, me, and Simon. Anytime she goes near Snickers, he just things she wants to play so they rarely cuddle. Her favorite way to cuddle though, is Simon. I could take pictures all day of them cuddeling in different rooms or places.