When I was pregnant with Logan, it was easy. Not so much easy being pregnant and having contractions from 36w-41 weeks and getting no sleep. But I had nothing better to do than to wait and see how things played out. This time, there are just so many factors of things to consider and how to time them and take care of them. Today, at my 34/35 week appointment, I was informed that I could try for an induction before my due date to try to have a vbac. How do I turn down the option of not having a repeat c sec when of course a successful vbac could be the best option. But what if its not successful? then I get a repeat c sec anyway. C section recover really didnt suck compared to some of the deliveries I have fallowed up on recently. What if the C sec is the easier option? A vbac could mean a shorter hospital stay and home to Logan sooner but do I want a short hospital with a baby who I dont even know how to feed right now? And theres that. Im dealing with a cleft lip which could mean bottle feeding and pumping or I could possibly breast feed. But is the palate involved like it is suspected to be? That could make feeding a bit more of a learning experience. Do I want the c section to have the longer hospital stay or the vbac so I can care for baby on my own if I recover faster. I also have an appointment at Childrens Hospital of Boston a weekish after baby is born. What will I recover from faster to be able to sit in the car for 2 hours there and back? And if im heading to boston, we will make an outlet stop to shop for the new baby and if BB2 is a girl we may need the trailer. Too many options of why things are good and bad and that they could be better or worse. I like the induced vbac option though. How do you willingly put yourself into surgery if you have a chance not too? But when?!?! Im busy this summer! I cant have my water break tomorrow because Ill be on vacation next week. But after 37w, I guess ill have to figure out a game plan for how this whole thing is going to go down (hmmm... sounds like the wrong phrase).
Either way, I dont know if its a boy or girl. And that to me right now is whats on my mind. I have no bedding or bedroom ideas picked out. I do have all the neutral baby clothes washed and put away in my room and the PnP is in the corner ready to set up in a 5 min notice. I got a rocking chair last week (still in a box... and I cant sit on a box and pump so i hope that comes together soon), I have a new diaper bag (Vera Backpack from xmas time) and have our bags packed (because telling matt where to find my underwear in the bottom right hand drawer if I had to would be way to hard of a task so having the bags done is the better option). I have washed all the teeny tiny newborn cloth diapers, so soft! But I need to grab a pack of newborn disposables. I am all set to have BB2. I just have no clue how to have it....
4 comments:
Kristin, you are just too funny the child, if a girl, will hardly notice she is wearing gender inappropriate clothing...then again perhaps even thinking of clothing as gender appropriate or inappropriate is sexist....gosh this modern world is just too crazy. just take care of yourself and don't sweat the small stuff. if it is a girl, send daddy out to buy the going home outfit...he better get used to it if he has a daughter
I spent about 3 years before Logan was born buying gender neutral clothes. I have a whole drawer of yellow, orange, and green cute stuff :P. And I guarantee, It would be Matt buying the cute frilly girl stuff, not me! lol He will be worse than me if that is any bit believable. But There are a few things I want if its a boy too so I dont really care myself, I just want to finally buy something for the baby. ha ha
Is a non-induced vbac an option? And I have to say, I love that your OB is even giving you that choice. I internet-know so many who have doctors that won't even consider it.
Whatever you choose, it will the the right decision for you and your family and that's what matters.
If I go into labor on my own, I will most def try for a vbac and that is why my scheduled c section is 4 days after my due date, to give me a chance. I waited the 2 years between births so I could have the options (and sanity!) so im glad to have them and will try for a vbac before elective surgery for sure.
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